"next time you point the finger i might have to bend it back and break it off"

i've had one of the most stressful days ever!

i'm not gonna lie, i was tempted to punch my tutor square in the nose.
obviously i would never really do that because a, i would get kicked off my course and b, i'm not a violent person, angry sometimes but not violent.
he just infuriates me when he takes control of my work and when i need his help he buggers off to help the rich kids. i mean i know their rich but come on, no need to suck up to them! i waited an entire day for him just to help me with my set which royally pissed me off, not to mention that still life is possibly the most mind numbingly, boring part of photography. i mean seriously, anyone could do still life, even my dog could do still life. i need a challenge, i like a challenge, GIVE ME A BLOODY CHALLENGE!!!


not only have i had to deal with the stresses of incompetent tutors but, theres been this big who-har in college between a friend of mine, and some other girls over something which quiet frankly didnt need to be turned into a slanging match. arguing over whos gonna "bang" (thats punch to me and you) each other first. but the thing is, i'm easily influenced and feel pressured to join in with these shenanigans, despite feeling guilty inside. i dont know whats wrong with me, surely i should be able to stick up for myself by now? clearly not!

on a brighter note, i listened to paramores new album today, which in all honesty its completely different to their old stuff. not one of the songs is catchy and thats what i like about it. i think my favourite song at the moment is playing god, possibly misguided ghosts too. i'm not fully decided as of yet. i was going to wait until my order of brand new eyes turned up on my doorstep but, it was posted on their website and all over every web site i go on and i caved in to the pressure. OH WELL!


"I'm going away for a while, but I'll be back, don't try to follow me, cause I'll return as soon as possible, see I'm trying to find my place, but it might not be here where I feel safe"