"i wanna rock n roll all night and party everyday!"

these past few days have been extremely eventful! so many fun times to remember. Let's start with thursday!


Firstly my compact flash card was buggered so I went into town with my boyfriend to get a new one, boy what a fuss that was! Trying to find one that wasn’t 80 quid! When we got to the venue my camera decided that it had no battery left! So I had to run around trying to find someone with the same charger! Finally got back to the venue in time for sound check. After sound check I went to the pub with the crew and my boyfriend for a cheeky pint, we had a good laugh playing deal or no deal and taking the piss out of dom! We got back to the venue and I had a quick 5 mins to say hello to some friends before rushing off to the dock ready to photograph lights go blue (awesomely nice guys!). their music isn’t too bad either actually, bit poppy for me but I deffo had a little dance to them whilst I took some photos.
After lights go blue had finished I went and sat with amy and jack, and had a little bitch about a friend of ours ex girlfriend. And jack told me I’m a 9/10 whoop whoop! Don Broco were up next, the singer moved so bloody fast at first it was hard to get a still photo of him, but after the first song I figured out his routine of movement and managed to get some good photos. I really enjoyed their set, very different music to what I would normally listen to. Plus their singer had some proper guns on him!
After Don Broco came the legends that are enter shikari, as I was waiting in the dock to photograph this smoke machine went off in front of me covering all the photographers and myself in smoke so no one could see us, was pretty funny! Photographing enter shikari’s set was so insane! At one point one of the bouncers lifted me up to avoid a crowd surfer, and I completely shit myself cos I had no idea what was going on! I also ended up with a crowd surfer on my head at one point! After I finished photographing I stood at the side of the stage and watched the rest of their set. Those boys are insane, they were running along the bars at the side of the crowd and jumping into the crowd. One girl fainted in the pit, she fell down like a sack of shit! At the end of the show once we got rid of the crowd and the venue was all packed up, I sat around chilling with the bands and I got chatting to one of the merch boys, who was insanely drunk! I ended up in a group photo with enter shikari, Don Broco and lights go blue which was quite cool.

FRIDAY

On Friday me and my boyfriend travelled to Wolvohampton to see the blackout. The venue was really weird, we had to go to a pub to collect our guestlist passes which was quite strange. Once we were inside the gig we bumped into snoz and got chatting about the events that happened on the night of my birthday, and just had a quick catch up. The first band were called the urgency, they were ok, but I don’t think I would listen to them all the time! During Hollywood undead my boyfriend spotted gavin so we went and said hello, but as we were walking to gav I noticed a guy wearing a mask looking at me as I walked past, and I was sure it was sean, but the mask really freaked me out so I carried on walking with my boy. I later found out that it was sean! I am so good at spotting people! Hollywood undead are the weirdest band I think I’ve ever witnessed in my life! I really didn’t expect a bunch of masked guys to start rapping on stage. I genuinely thought they were gonna be a bunch of slipknot wannabe’s! boy was I mistaken! Silverstein were up next! I remember being really into their music in my earlier emo days when I was 16. Their set was pretty awesome! They even played an old favourite of mine.
Lastly the blackout came on stage and opened up with shut the fuck upper cut (one of my favourites) in superb fashion and then went straight into spread legs not lies which is equally as awesome! I danced like a complete prat during their set, and I jumped with too much force during save ourselves that both soles on my shoes cracked open! Once the blackout had come off stage we went round to the back of the venue to wait around for them to come out. Whilst we were waiting, there were two guys stood next to us who OBVIOUSLY thought they were gods gift, who kept shouting things like “I’m a guitarist obv’s I’m cool” and “I work for the blackout that must mean I’m awesome!”. The blackouts crew guy shut them up tho! He replied “if you guys haven’t got any decent replies or can throw a good punch I suggest you shut the fuck up!”. I’ve never seen too hard knocks go so quiet in all my life. Sheer brilliance! Then we watched these two boys who looked like they were gonna self combust because reese and gav were infront of them! Haha! When sean came out me and my boyfriend went over and had a little chat, my boy got his photo taken with sean after years of never having his photo with him, and afterwards I had my photo taken with sean again. Except I look like a hamster in my photo because sean told me something dirty which made me laugh! A little while later a girl walked up to sean and asked “sean can I smell you?” which I found highly amusing, and had to hold back the urge not to laugh at her!

I really cannot remember anything else from those two days except that they were both possibly the funniest and most enjoyable days I have had in a while! Oh an that this is possibly the longest blog I have ever written!

"when all's said & Done"

I'm on a complete high right now. I'm currently listening to the sheer brilliance that is the blackouts new abum and.....OH MY LIFE! my little ears have been blown away! I never thought i would hear my self say how meaty they sound. but they truely are! very impressed!

so i'm bumming around my boyfriends house waiting to get the thumbs up to go photograph an possibly chillax with enter shikari. I'm actually really excited for tonight, not neccesarily because i'm photographing them but also because i just love to dance like a prat to their music! In fact i love dancing like a prat to any band full stop!

I''m also super excited to see the blackout tomorrow. it will be interesting to hear how they play their new album live. I''m particulary looking forward to them seeing my boyfriend sober, unlike the last time we saw them. Now that was possibly the funniest night of my life! I have never witnessed him so drunk in the whole 7 and a half months we've been together. Nor have i seen him shake someones hand 60 times in one go! so many fun memories in one night.

i acually have nothing else to say in this post today, my mind seems to have slipped out of my head! maybe i'll find more thoughts to share tomorrow!

Comfort Blanket

so, i don't know what's happening but I'm becoming rather addicted to my blog recently. Its becoming my comfort blanket for venting things on my mind. In all honesty....i kinda like it!

Today hasn't been the best of days and here are a few reasons why!
1. my memory card for my camera has decided it doesn't want to work, therefore left me looking like a prune as i was about to start my fashion shoot in the studio. bad times!
2. When i finally got into the studio to do my shoot, i just couldn't seem to get my lighting right. you know what its like, you have a vision but you just cant get it across. It was rather annoying that my tutor actually liked my shots but i knew i could have done so much better. bad bad times!
3. I suffered every photographers worse nightmare.........creative block! its kinda like writers block only instead of loosing your mojo to write stuff, you loose the ability to direct people. this can be incredibly annoying, especially to impatient people like myself. bad bad bad times!
lastly number 4. i was in such a rush to grab my stuff from my locker, in order to catch my bus on time that i left my key in my locker door. unfortunately for me i have things in there that i cannot loose, and most likely they will be robbed over the half term! bad bad bad bad times!

I could seriously smack myself in the head today, with all the stupidity my body and mind are creating. They're like their own little enemy force today. Sometimes i really wonder why i bother trying to make something of myself.

but surely if travel round a crap corner, sensibility is on the other side? only time will tell!

ventilation

some times i really wish i owned a blackberry or maybe a sidekick just so i can blog from where ever i am, anytime day or night and just vent whatevers on my mind.
Today has been stressful to say the least! I really cannot wait to curl up in bed and sleep off this fowl mood.
mothers are the most stressful creatures god ever created. all they do is dictate your whole life!
if i was god, i would definitely make the world a really chilled out place to live. you know kinda like how hippies are in those 60's movies, all free and floating around, not a care in the world except maybe letting your boobs go commando just to stick it to the man! although how thats sticking it to the man i will never know, but it does seem kind of kinky. maybe its ment in a more provocative way. i dunno but i'm drifting.
my beds calling maybe i should get in it.
another 8 hours of pure photographic heaven await me tomorrow!

tales from the stormy sea

recently I've been writing some lyrics and I've noticed that they're a lot different to the old stuff i used to write about.
I used to write about things relating to love -well what i thought was love-, emotions and other teenage things. But these new lyrics I've written have turned a new direction.

One of the songs i wrote is loosely based around certain front men I've met over the past 7 months. all of whom are lovely to your face, but aren't polite enough to reply to your messages. I think it would be really funny if in the future this song was heard by all the front men its based around. i wonder if any of them will figure out its about them. hmmm....only time will tell!

another song I've written is about a lost friendship between me and my previous best friend. at first i thought it would be really hard to come to terms with the fact that a, my friendship with him is gone and b, actually coming to write about our seperation from each other. suprisingly for me i found the writing really easy, even though i still think about him and the fun times we used to have. It's sad to loose a friend who was virtually my brother for 3 years, but i think things in my life would be so different now if i still had him in my life. And i wouldnt have this new song without our friendship failing so that has to be a plus point right?

Thats what you get when you let your heart win!

Recently i dont know whats going on with my body but, i wake up every morning feeling like i've just been hit by a bus. Its starting to get annoying!
Alot of stuff between old friends has gone on recently and im thinking maybe thats something to do with it. But honestly, i really don't know. One thing i am sure of...i need a change and fast!
I guess i just cant get my head around the fact someone who was supposed to be my best friend, went behind my back and became buddies with the one guy that tried to tear our friendship appart. Not only that but she's totally ignored me and acted weird around me since february.
So i find myself asking the question "what is friendship really worth?". Almost every best friend i've had since 2005 has deserted me or turned themselves into my enemy for no apparent reason, except for 2 people. And other friends, well what can i say. Most of my friendships have turned into really awkward situations and thats not how friendship is supposed to be...is it?